The Garden: Begin again

With only 10 days to go before my birthday – as usual this time of the year draws me to a series of my famous chair moments. I switch to a pensive mode and try as much as possible to soak in every last bit of what’s left of the current year.

In the same breath I make sure I am ready for the year ahead. This year has been a rather interesting one for me- very unpredictable to be exact. In that it has been filled with a plethora of events that stimulated and provoked quite a number of emotions.

This year alone I have grieved a loss of a loved one through death, friendships that went sour, networks that broke, Business that failed. I have had to deal with anxiety separation, financial imbalances, weight loss, weight gain, frequent visit to the hospital. This year has been the least I’ve had to see and spend time with my children. At the same time this year I met new people, rekindled old flames and established new networks.

I have embarked on journeys completely new and challenging and I have smiled, laughed, cried, danced, sang. I have forgiven, initiated reconciliation where it was due and I have also given love another try.  Come to think of it 34^th year on earth has been a cocktail – one very strong and hot cocktail – if I had to give it a name then it would be Amen. Needless to say it has been one year that has had me take a deeper look and not just a mere reflecting, but rather a deep thought process that propelled me into reforming myself and the events around me.

I think it will go down in history that on this very year where I celebrate a milestone of 35 years on this earth, I, Lerato Charlotte Letsoso decided to adjust my crown and own my throne.  I quit from being a beggar, forcing to fit into spaces I’m no longer wanted in. I quit from being a victim, I quit from being passive and most importantly I quit from complaining about it.

I do not know what it is that you have been going through. You could be challenged professionally, academically or personally. You could even be challenged medically or like me have a bad taste of all of the above. No matter how bad or how low, I am here to let you know that you can begin again. Don’t get stuck in a place you’re no longer belonged because God has more in store for you.  You know, not every closed door is a curse- for some of us if doors were not shut in our faces we wouldn’t make a move. Unfortunately, it is only when we make a move that change comes.

I hate to put it to you that no one is coming to save you.  Things will not change until you decide to change them.  You are the executive producer of your beautiful story and you must own it.  Keep working on you, keep trying and when all else fails begin again and again.